Jealous? Me? Never!

Well what can I say..... I'm jealous. Really really jealous.
I really wanted to apply for 2010 but I wasn't sure I could get my access course finished by June and didn't want to push myself that hard! As well as gaining some relevent experience, working on my personal statement, looking after Jakob and Ian, trying to keep the house clean and tidy (LOL)... nope I would never have been able to do it.
But still it sucks, I'm happy - really happy for everyone who has gained a place for 2010 but still when I see them all excited about the equipment they can go out and buy now, books, meeting the other girls in their cohort... arghh I have to wait a whole year for this... and that's even if I manage to get a place for 2011 :(
I know all I can do is try... and to try and make myself a more rounded person I have applied to volunteer for a domestic violence charity and a bearevement (spelling?) charity to befriend women who have suffered abuse.. and to help + listen to people who have suffered a loss.
To be honest I think this would give me great experience if I get either place, not just for midwifery but for life! and would be a lovely thing to do.

I am seriously falling behind on DLC work - uh oh! and have contacted a couple of local childminders to see if they could take Jakob maybe one day a week? depends on costs really. Then I can spend the whole day studying. As even on Ians days off he doesn't usually spend more than an hour with Jakob if I'm not around

Today is the first day I am attempting to do some work while Jakob naps. He usually has a nap from 10am-11.30am and from about 1.30-3pm but now his later nap is all messed up as I've changed his food routines so we will see what happens then. But right now it is 10am and I need to try and restrain from running around trying to clean and tidy and just ignore the messy house and get some work done!!!

xxx