Unsuccessful at Surrey University

Eek! Haven't posted recently. Been feeling a bit down.

I knew I messed up my Surrey interview and the more I thought about it the more crappy it made me feel

I attended an interview at London Southbank Uni on 16th November and I felt this one went really well! I was in there with the interviewers for nearly an hour, just felt like a relaxed informal conversation where i got to talk about my passion! So different from the Surrey interview! Too bad it's the furthest uni away from me :(

Also can't remember if I posted on here but I got a letter from Middlesex and on the 3rd of December I need to go do some maths and English tests and if I pass them then I get invited to an interview.

At the begining of this week I phoned Surrey and they said they would let me know by Friday (yesterday) whether I had a place or not. I pretty much knew the answer but still sat on eggshells all week waiting. Finally by yesterday afternoon I gave in and phoned them. I was told 'we've rejected you'. Probably not the best way they could have put it but hey ho. I wanted to ask why but could feel myself about to burst into tears so I just said 'ok thank you bye' and hung up.

I then went and ran a bath and sat on my bed thinking about things and crying. Jakob was having a nap so I was alone to be sad. Even though I wasn't shocked by the answer I was still pretty devastated. I didn't even tell Ian straight away as I knew he'd tell me not to cry, not to worry... but sometimes you just have to let it out don't you?

After a while I realised my bath was cold so had obviously been there a while and got Jakob up from his nap and carried on with my day.

All in all I'm grateful I had the interview as it was experience and I gave it a shot. It wasn't my first choice but I did love the university etc so it was still upsetting. Thinking about it it's knocked my confidence a bit for my remaining interviews but has also made me more determined. I will get a place this year, I have to get a place! I NEED a place.

Anyway enough of my ramling, other things that have contributed to my mood recently is the fact that I have SPD. I started getting pains, tried to ignore them until the other day I literally couldn't do anything ALL day and the doctor said I need antenatal physiotherapy now, so yeah, great!

Shit day

went to hospital. forgot to put car seat in my dads car, so he couldn't drop Jakob at childminders for me, which means another days money wasted on that bloody childminder.

Got to hospital, they took my blood, my arm bled everywhere, i nearly fainted and she made me lay down with my legs up.

Sat for half an hour waiting for my glucose drink thing. Drank it then had to sit and not leave the area or eat and drink anything for 2 hours.

Took more blood and my blood went everywhere again.

Went to see consultant midwife. Turns out I have a urine infection, or thrush. Got swabs taken, had a quick scan done, heard heartbeat.

Had to wait around for ages to try and pee so they could send a sample off. Had me downing jugs of water, telling me to go get some food. But I couldn't afford to eat as the car parking was so expensive.

Finally managed to pee enough and literally ran out of the hospital, got to the machine 1 minute before my cost went up to £9!!!!!!!!! thank god. so i 'only' had to pay £8.

Driving home there was a fire down a road I had to go through, crowds of people, firemen and engines etc so i sat down that road for about an hour.

Finally got home to my dad crying. He recieved a letter from the hospital saying his cancer had spread.

I read the letter and I wasn't sure of the terms so i made him phone up and he has a doctors appointment monday, but from what i can tell the letter meant that he had cancer in the bits they cut out... not in the remaining bits.

So fingers crossed.

Will be hearing from Surrey soon

Well just phoned Surrey and the admissions staff told me they have recieved the interview notes from tutors today!

The definate unsuccessfuls will be contacted within the next week.

The definate offers will be given within the next month (but this wont be many people as they still have so many interviews)

and the maybes will all be left until they have conducted more interviews and will hear in the new year.

So if I don't hear in the next week that I have been unsuccessful (which I probably will) I'll have to wait till the new year! Which is long!

xxx

More interviews!

Rightio!

Friday, phoned Middlesex and asked how my application was doing? She asked if I had my UCAS ID handy and I was like 'yeh I know it off by heart' which she found amusing! They must think we're so desperate :p Anyway she checked on her computer and told me I had an interview!!!!!!!!! Said that they haven't sorted out dates yet which is why I haven't heard but as soon as they have the first date I'll get a letter.

Saturday went on a murder mystery evening with Ian. It was........ strange!!! lol not how I expected it at all. And everyone turned up in cocktail dresses and suits and there we were in jeans lol! Felt so out of place. But it was a fun night, and we guessed the murderer wrong! boo! And then I attempted to drive home in the middle of the night with the sky full of fog from fireworks plus it was pitch black... not fun! Oh and witnessed a massive car crash that took out a couple of garden walls and lamposts!!

This morning I took Jakob for an injection, I made my dad come and I was nearly crying. Jakobs bottom lip went and he was about to cry but then we distracted him with a toy and he started giggling and playing so can't have been that bad! lol.

Recieved an email from UCAS today saying my status had changed. I thought nooooo a uni hates me, but it turned out to be an interview invite from LSBU.

I have to be honest and say they are my back up, absolute last choice... so I'm not as nervous as I was about Surrey.

It takes about an hour and ahalf to get to the hospital from here which is why they are my last choice, but I shall go and see what happens. They have given me 5, yes FIVE days to prepare. Arghhh!!

Surrey Interview

I had my interview at Surrey today! What a sham!!!!!

Was up till about 2am trying to prepare and find all my relevent documents. Was then up at 6am getting ready.

My boyfriend took the morning off of work to come and give me moral support... and we left about 7am

Got to the uni about 8am, and that was with traffic as well! Got into the right building about 8.15 and there were already a few people there.

Met a couple of people that I had spoken to online, who were really nice and made me feel more relaxed about the day otherwise I would have probably been sat there in silence!

At 9 they gave us a quick talk about the day, followed by a maths and english exam. They were ok not too bad.

We were then given a presentation about the university and then called to the interviews.

There were 15 of us and most of us were talking while waiting to go in, and found out a couple of people live really close to me!

The interview was actually horrible. The worst part is that it was really simple questions they asked me... yet I still felt all panicky and tongue tied! I wasn't even nervous before the interview but as soon as I was sat in front of them I fell to pieces. Then when I tried to speak I could hear my voice shaking which made me feel even more nervous. A couple of times I nearly started tearing up as I just felt it was so hopeless. I must have been in there about 10 minutes but it felt like an hour.

They asked me about 4 questions and sat there staring at me when I answered. A couple of things I said they were like 'oh... really?' with a confused look like they either didn't believe or understand what i was saying. Also when I answered they were like 'yes... and?' and sort of acted like i hadn't actually answered the question properly. I also noticed them looking at my big baby bump and at one point I said something like 'yeh well I had my son last year' and they all looked down at my bump and back up at me like I was some sort of nymphomaniac.

After I answered about 4 or 5 questions they said something along the lines of 'let's finish it here shall we' or something and were quite negetive.

Also others were told today they did well in the maths and english exam but they didn't mention it to me so I'm guessing I didn't do great.

All in all looks like I'm not going to be going to Surrey next year! :(

Kings feedback

Today I phoned kings to ask for feedback why I wasn't offered an interview.

I need to know this information, sort of like closure from my first choice so I can concentrate on the others? Also so I can improve anything that wasn't good enough.

But I was suprised when she told me the feedback. First I was told it was lack of midwifery experience, but I am currently trying to sort out some experience with my local community midwives. Then she said that my personal statement didn't talk about current midwifery issues. I thought a personal statement was to sell YOURSELF  - your passion, your drive, your interests, your capability, your skills, your qualities, your experience. Not discuss things they already know about and that anyone can pick up a newspaper and read? So yes, I was quite surprised.

I was told if I'm lucky I may get an interview in the new year once they've interviewed all the best people. LOL.

When I hung up I was trying not to cry, but I've been thinking about it and I honestly believe it's their loss. I mean, I've got the highest score possible in everything on my access course, my tutor wrote a fab reference basically saying I'm an amazing student. I know I'm going to do bloody brilliant at uni - if they can't see that... if they don't understand my passion, skills, knowledge - potential! Then they are missing out on what will be one heck of a great midwife.