Second trust induction

We had another trust induction today. Apparently it was for midwives as well as ther nurses - but they just talked about nursy things and then turned to us and went 'oh and you guys too maybe'. They even discussed things that 1. happen in a hospital with no maternity section which none of us will be at and 2. that happen on days and times we're in lectures.... so obviously aimed at nurses, even though apparently it was for us all.

We had a big talk about toasters. One strike and you're out. Do not put sausages or bacon in the toaster. Do not put cheese on the bread and turn the toaster on it's side to make cheese on toast. Don't open the door when the toaster is on. Don't leave the toaster unnattended. Don't put thick sliced bread in the toaster. If you use bread that doesn't come sliced already, neatly cut the bread to fit in the toaster. If we break any toaster rules the toaster will be taken away.

We were then split into groups. The midwives had 3 hours of nothing before the next session. Thanks. I worked it out so I could get my train in time to pick up J from preschool, andI kept thinking about it thinking yes I can do it! I haven't been ableto do it since I started uni, and I was sooo excited seeing his little face light up. But my train came early and I missed it. In the last 10 years or so of me getting the train, I don't remember it once coming early. The one time I needed it not to come early it left at 44 past instead of 48 past. So I bought lunch and sat in the park.

I spoke to my boyfriend to tell him that I wouldn't be picking J up after all, and then the tears came. As soon as I said it out loud I realised how angry I was. That I had gotten my hopes up. That they had given us a bloody 3 hour break in the first place. 3 hours I could be spending time with my babies.

So I tried to phone my mentor about placement tomorrow and she didn't answer. I phoned a few times, no answer - left a voicemail. Then she turned her phone off and it hasn't come back on yet.

So 3 hours later we went for the other training session. It was about 15 minutes on 'this is how you open the cubhoard when getting gloves etc'. Then we were told actually we could have done it in January. Thanks. So I could have seen my family, could have picked J up from school - seen his face light up and run across the hall to see me. But no - I sat in a cold park for 3 hours, was told how to open a cabinet and then told I didn't actually need this information.

So this evening, I have still been trying to contact my mentor, her phone is still off. Contacted the lady in charge of placements who told me to just turn up at the hospital tomorrow (even though I don't know if my mentor will be there, or where, or when) and I emailed her to ask what time but no reply.

Getting so fed up with disorganisation all over the place. Just sort it out already.