Sooo.... I have an appointment with occupational health on 20th June, I've sent back my forms and stuff so the ball is rolling... Now I'm just dreading all the blood tests and injections I'm going to need :( I absolutely despise needles, which should be fun on placement shouldn't it!!! I really am trying to be less scared but I think it's just getting worse? Last time I had my blood taken I passed out when I looked at the needle, it was mortifying!
I had a mini panic attack in bed last night... I was thinking how quickly time has flown since Joshua was born and how he's nearly 3 months!!!!!!!! Then I remembered I was starting uni around the time he's 6months!
Half of my time with him has gone already and what do I have to show for it? I'm going to be busy with uni when he says his first words, or takes his first steps.... I'm torn inside whether to ask if I can defer my place or not - but I know realistically I wont do that.
I worked SO hard for this, my uni had Well over 1,000 people applying and only a few of us were given an offer. That's kinda changed now as they've been given extra funding and extra hospitals for placements so they are doing more interviews to take on more students and there will be around 92 of us! Unbelievable! Many cohorts for this particular degree have less than 20! Anyway I know they wouldn't let me defer for a reason such as 'I want to spend more time with my baby' so I would have to reapply next year and the whole process was so stupidly stressful I do NOT want a repeat.
And then there's the fact that I actually miss being out working doing stuff with adults every day! Hmmm it's so hard...
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