rubbish time

Well it's been a hectic week or two... I haven't even looked at my coursework!

I recieved my marks for my first biology assignment - merit not distinction! poo! my 1st choice university needs distinctions throughout. I need to step up my game.. I have spoken to my tutor and all it was was that I didn't put a bibliography at the end. I explained that I didn't think we needed it for general questions I thought it was just for essays and reports! So I may be able to just add it at the end?

As I said... not a good couple of weeks. My dad was taken to the hospital for more tests to see if his latest treatment had worked but there were more lumps, which they have taken bits from to test. So we just need to wait for another appointment date to go find out what is going on! He might have to have an opperation to remove all his bladder and everything! Arhg don't really want to think about it. I also found out my car had FOUR flat tyres and got a lecture from the guy in the garage for ages :( .. went swimming left my bank card there.. someone tried to use it.. nearly got a parking ticket for waiting outside the leisue center while ian ran in and grabbed it for me. Then me and Jakob got a cold (think it was from the cold pool ;() Jakob keeps throwing up I woke up this morning there was like well it looked like poo all down him but smelt of sick... this has never happened to my baby I'm really worried :(

On a better note me and Jakob saw a friend of mine have acupuncture ... Jakob looked panicked and kept trying to climb up on the table lol bless him I think he was trying to save her.

Today is rubbish.... it's Jakobs first day at a childminder and I'm trying not to cry!!! I just feel like I'm betraying him and he's going to hate me and stuff it's so strange. We decided to take him once a week as I'm falling so behind on my work so this gives me 4/5 hours on a thursday morning to try and get as much done as possible!! lol thought some people I know doing the course are doing at least that much EVERYDAY.. and I have extra modules to do :( and it all has to be distinctions :(

ARRRRGH xxx